i hav a wonderful life,nw then i realise...b happy 4 me
x am is coming n no mood to study...jus sad...but dunno y...i tink is jus default...hw i wish i could turn back time...to my sec life,i m much more happy then than nw...or best when i was jus a kid...b cos kid show real feelings to every1 they dun really noe hw to tell lie...they can b happy 4 a day when they r reward wit a sweet...kid hav nt much to worry and tink...nw every1 is keeping feelings,bad mouth,back stab,plot...including me...adult world is so dirty...nw i tink tat there is no1 i can fall back on...if i fall i tink i will drop dw the hill n die...every1 will say yes i will b there 4 u...but when ting happen u c no shadow...some time i jus tink i should leave some pp ard me...i m like holding them back for them to move on...without me i tink thy will b better...m i rite?i tink i m really dw wit depression...pp oso luv to eat words...when thy say it n thy say i nev n argue wit u like hell...but no 1 to me my witness...life is full of shit...pp say there is heaven n hell...n thy say pp die go either to hell or heaven...i say thy all go to heaven cos tis is hell we had suffer enough...y i say tat b cos those bad guys alwys live longer than the gd 1...y?to suffer more...i m nw so confuse...who care 4 me?who is always there 4 me?some times i jus tink i give too much n i dun get an equal return...any1 will ever give up their main x am paper to come c me last time if i were to die?n who will willingly come in to sub my place as a son to take care my family if i m gone?if my family is to go bankrupt is there any1 will want to take us in as their family?if i were to b in coma n no1 include my family can support me any more financially to let me live will any1 take up tat task?if i were to b handicap n no1 can help me will any1 use their whole life to help me?is there any taker?no rite?onli i tis stupid ass will do tat 4 some pp...but i itnk no 1 will do it back 4 me...if there is some stupid ass in tis world r like me pls tell me...cos i found another ass to spent lots of my time wit...in tis world u can trust no 1 x cept ur self...i really regret noeing some pp in life...thy jus simply sux to the code...thy jus ruin the happiness in me...haiz...wat a "wonderful" life i hav...
